Monday, January 7, 2013

Its called a break-up, because its broken..

"You won't be needing THIS!"

Good day!

 Giving into my light work-load these past few days, I’ve decided to do ANOTHER blog. Not about resolutions or an update on my “no drinking January” (although I’m doing well!), but instead about THE BIG BREAK-UP.  I haven’t talked openly about this; with the exception of telling some girlfriends, but it REALLY is called a Break-up because its exactly that…Broken.

 I’ve always had the same attitude of other peoples relations, being that no one else is in that relationship except those 2 people…NO ONE. No one REALLY knows what goes on behind closed doors with other couples. UNLESS you’re an open book…which, anyone who knows me, knows I am VERY private because frankly, my relationship is no one else’s business. For example, you have a friend who tells you something shitty her bf did; the next time you see said boyfriend, that’s ALL you think about! THUS the reason I don’t talk about my relationships.

 Now I’m not going to sit here and tell the whole storey about what happened between him and I, but I will let you know, I thought about it for over a year. My head was constantly filled with questions; “is he the one?” “am I SURE this is what I want”..”What if I do it and realize I made the biggest mistake of my life?”. That last question haunted me for a year, but like I always say, Life is short and sometimes you just have to take a chance.  And I went forth with my “chance taking” and ended up meeting someone unbelievably amazing and completely unexpected.

 Now, details aside, what I did was completely inexcusable and NO ONE deserves that. I can never take back what I did and I have to live with that every day.  I have to live with the fact that I literally ripped the heart out (and played basketball with for a bit..) of the person who loved me more than anything…and loved me more that I deserved.  Many people seem to think I am just a heartless bitch who could care less about what I did. The real reality of it: There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about it.  I know that will lessen with time, and as he moves on the better his life will become too, hopefully.  I am sincere in the fact that I hope he has an amazing life. We had a great relationship the past 7 years and I’ll always have those memories. He was also a great man-friend and anyone who knew him can attest to that…well being a great friend…not man-friend, lets clear that up ha-ha. He will be amazing for the right girl and he deserves someone incredible, truly.

 On the lighter side, I will finish off with this. I have never been so incredibly happy in my life. Everything kind of fell together as It should, and I have no regrets…NONE.  Quoted by Drake: “The best relationships, are the ones you never expect to be in..”.

 Love, Laura xoxox


Thursday, January 3, 2013

January: Sober Month

“A drunk man’s words, are a sober man’s thoughts..”

        So as I am sure you clued in from my last blog, that January is “SOBER MONTH”.  I am actually pretty excited about it; not that I am a ragging alcoholic, but I can literally count on 1 hand how many weekends I’ve been sober since BEFORE October…THAT, my friend, is an inconvenient truth. I’ve been going out almost every weekend, and let me tell you, living like a rock star isn’t cheap….except when you bring in a bottle of rum to the bar…GUILTY!

         I really feel like my liver will thank me. Being a HARD alcohol drinker, I don’t waste time. Vodka is my drug of choice (as is my ol’ stand by JD) and I am a self-proclaimed “power drinker”. Basically, “I don’t waste time” means, I will drink it straight…in some cases from the bottle, but mostly double vodka with a splash of 7-up…hell, I’ve even been doing Vodka-water during my most recent excursions (I know your shuttering at that thought). I’m not a “casual” drinker, being that I don’t have a couple, a few nights a week. I pick 1 day, and go BALLS OUT. Good-times. SO GOOD in fact, I had a verbal run-in at a gay bar last month…too much Patron…too many divas in the room. At that point, I’d say it’s best to put the bottle DOWN.

         I think this goal will be pretty easy to attain. I have no events planned for this month (so far..) and I don’t rely on the hooch at all…I just like to go out and have a good time, and somehow Jagger-bombs find their way to my mouth…HA. I WILL be posting on Facebook if I have a slip up, so you can harass me then about it…don’t tip-toe around my feelings either ha-ha.

 Peace in the middle-east :D

 Love, Laura xoxox

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Resolutions: 12 Months of Goals

Hello Beautiful reader..

 WOWZA! It has been a SUPER longtime since I’ve blogged about ANYTHING!  It seems the last few months have been a bit crazy and I’ve made a lot of changes in my life…for the BETTER! Love lost..Love gained; that old chestnut.  ANYWAYS, I come to you today regarding New Year’s Resolutions. Now, I usually shy away from these types of things, BUT, my brilliance always surprises me. I have decided to do “12 months of Goals”; if you didn’t get that from the on…

 Instead of creating 1 or 2 solid goals for the year, I’m going to make 12 goals (1 for each month) for an entire year.  I feel these will be MORE attainable, as its only for a month. And no, I won’t have a month of “get healthy”, then eat spray cheese for the rest of the year; as I’m on a “get healthy” kick year around. They will be more fun and entertaining!  Below is a list of monthly goals I WILL meet:

 -          “Vegetarian” month

-          “Sober” month (this will most likely be January..)

-          “NO Coffee” month (this also means NO starbucks…ERMEGERD!)

-          “Minimal Make-up” month (only foundation/mascara…I am still considering this one, as it sounds more like a nightmare right now…)

-          “Yoga” month (this one may turns into a weekly thing…dependant on my downward dog capabilities.. >.< )

-          “Picture-a-day” month (YAY for instagram!)

-          “NO swearing” month (all who know me, know this’ll be a difficult month…be prepared for a few “GEE Whizzers”..”GEEZ LOUISE’S”…and plenty of “EHRMEGERDS!!!”

-          “Cook something weird/foreign/complicated” once a week, for a month

-          “Spend more time with friends/family” month ( THIS should be done already…but I’ll make a hard effort for 1 month..that is all ha-ha.)

-          “Just say YES” month (YES to mini-golfing, YES to Starwars, YES to octopus, YES to eating the scorpion in the tequila…etc.)

-          “Talk more, text less” month (so basically CALL instead of text…I know…MIND.BLOWN)

-          “Stop and smell the Roses” month (Basically means I will buy fresh flowers once a week…or maybe more depending on the time of year..)

All in all, I am pretty satisfied with all of those. I mean really, it’s only a MONTH of each of those. And if I so chose, they might carry into other months (such as the no coffee…yoga..roses, etc.). Along with each of these month goals, I will be making a “Happy Jar”. I saw this on Facebook and Pinterest recently! You write down things that happened throughout the year (good of course) and put them in the jar, and on New years Eve of this year, you go through them and see all the amazing things that happened through the year! When I heard of that, I was like DONE!

 Anyways, I will be blogging about each months progress and what goal I’ve chosen for that month. Obviously January’s goal is going to be “Sober month”…as my liver is crying out for it!  Hope you enjoyed this post, my apologies I’ve been slack-a-lackin in the blog department, but get over it :D. Have a truly fantastic day!

 Love, Laura xoxox