Monday, September 19, 2011

Friday, September 16, 2011

Diva on a Dime: EyesLipsFace

Hello Dollie!!

   Today's video is about!! Its a really inexpensive place to buy make-up and its good quality!!! This is DEFIANTLY the place to be a DIVA, while on a dime! Enjoy!

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(Click the link to see the video!!!)

Monday, September 12, 2011

Diva on a Dime: Homemade Scrubs

Hi Hello!!!

Before you start gettin ALL up in my bizznazz about my lack of video participation..I have been WAITING on some stuff I ordered online to come in to make a new video..BUT in the mean time, this will have to suffice.

HOMEMADE SCRUBS!!!!!! EEE I'm excited...I LOVE exfoliating!! Its an addiciton, a necessary one at that! If you're not an avid exfoliator, you need to become one!!! I was blessed with good skin genes, so I don't get terribly DRY skin and akward patchiness, but being in Alberta, we all suffer from some type of dry skin and SLATHERING on lotion will not work unless your exfoliating. If you don't scrub off the dead skin, your just putting lotion on top of this, and its not able to penetrate into your skin, get it? GOOD.
Enough of my blabbering...enjoy the video doll!

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Dying: I just don't wanna be there when it happens.

Good Evening Beautiful reader,

I am taking a vlogg break and doing a good ol' fashion blog today. Suggesting form the title I assume you already know what this will be about. Death. Dying. After-life. Someone asked my grandma once "Are you afraid of dying?" and her witty response was "No..I just don't wanna be there when it happens!" Which is funny...but truthfully..that is my reality. Read on..

I was passing by a large cemetery today, as I do everyday on my way to work, and I actually glanced up from my IPhone for a minute and REALLY looked at the size of it. There were rows upon rows of tombstones and statues and buildings and it REALLY made me aware of my own mortality. Now, don't get me wrong, deep down I KNOW I will die someday, but to take off my mask for a few minutes, I am PETRIFIED of dying. Even writing that sentence, my heart pounded a little quicker than usual. I will even go as far to say as I have FULL ON panic attacks when I truly think about it. When I think about all the things in my life I have will just be gone...I will be gone..forever.

I just CAN"T seem to wrap my head around the fact that I won't live forever! And no matter what anyone has ever said to me has made me feel better. People always say "well its gonna happen..." NO! I just can't imagine this. I have so many, what happens????? Where do we go?? Is heaven real??? How can you be sure it is???. I heard a comedian say once to someone who was afraid of death and he just said "You go into came from nothing, was it so bad!??" And for some reason I cannot get that out of my head.  This is the FIRST time I have ever publicly announced my deep fear of death/dying, and I'm hoping SOMEONE out there shares this fear..or maybe I should see a shrink..thoughts?

There are certain things that do make me feel better about dying...when someone says that there is proof of an afterlife...or you're born into something else in a new life (that's my favorite), and just to be clear, if you thinking about harping god/heaven/angel stuff to me? Save it...I need SOLID evidence that this all exists, or perhaps I need to have faith...stay tuned.  To speak about my panic attacks, they are scary. My heart stars pounding OUT of my chest and I feel like I'm trapped and can't breath...and that usually turns into crying and needing to get air. I have had some scary moments on my balcony where a SMALL part of me thought..."I could just jump right now and find out what really happens", this is HOW crazed I get!!! And they freaky part is, I can't just shut my mind off when I get these panics....I just have to talk myself down from them...This fear is awful, and I really need to find the root of it. Maybe I feel scared now b/c I have so many things I still want to do or be...who knows, I'm still trying to figure it out.

Anyways, now that I have shared a private part of my life...maybe you can share yours, or shed some light on my situation, in hopes you have a similar one.

Love, Laura xoxox